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View metadata, citation and similar papers at core.ac.uk brought to you by CORE provided by Winthrop University The Anthology Volume 2019 Article 46 April 2019 Inhale Ex-Hell Felicia Chisholm Follow this and additional works at: https://digitalcommons.winthrop.edu/anthology Part of the Arts and Humanities Commons Recommended Citation Chisholm, Felicia (2019) "Inhale Ex-Hell," The Anthology: Vol. 2019 , Article 46. Available at: https://digitalcommons.winthrop.edu/anthology/vol2019/iss1/46 This Editors is brought to you for free and open access by Digital Commons @ Winthrop University. It has been accepted for inclusion in The Anthology by an authorized editor of Digital Commons @ Winthrop University. For more information, please contact bramed@winthrop.edu. 65 The Anthology 2019 Staff Felicia Chisholm is a native of Chester, South Carolina and graduated from Winthrop in 2017 with a Bachelor’s in English. She is currently interning at Nation Ford High School in Fort Mill, South Carolina, and she will be receiving her Master’s in Teaching this May. Her poem, “Slow Death,” was published in the anthology, South Carolina’s Best Emerging Poets, and in her words, she is “thoroughly Felicia Chisholm Prose Editor astonished and grateful!” She enjoys music, kickboxing, travel (especially after studying abroad in Italy), trying new recipes, reading, yoga, and writing poetry--just to name a few. She is most passionate about social justice issues and promoting inquiry-based learning in high school students. In a nutshell, she describes her interactions with other human beings thusly: “Because there’s always so much to say, I often say nothing at all.” Inhale Ex-Hell Felicia Chisholm longing for the presence of Spirit while the landscape of my sacred space is ICU terror. the stench of years of stale tears within this old mattress stabs my nostrils. his love burned me to the core my mind set on Thee so in perfect peace You are to keep me, but my daily companion is anguish. “why won’t You extract this pain, this infernal chokehold in my lungs? can’t You see that the more I breathe the more he breathes hot within me?” his voice pollutes the essence of my being I am sick and psycho-sore, paralyzed with reminders of life-long-taught thoughts about You being omnipresent— even some sort of Sovereign resident encapsulated in this disgusting flesh-vessel. I don’t feel you! so I’m livid. You are estranged! so I’m empty. yet, somehow You stand between me and damnation? but if You are estranged then what is the state of my soul? will there be paradise or am I lost? fists clenched I fight, no one suffering blows but me. his odor incinerates my gut still breathing, facing my truth: I am the chosen host for parasites of pain—an archetype— exiled from my origin in heavens unknown, transported through unexplored dimensions by human womb to this place of persecution and beautiful demons, my bosom a receptacle for serpentine suitors. surely this is mortal perdition. trauma-toiling, how much longer, Sir? seeking craving aching to lick the tetanus knife of earth extermination. 66